Friday, December 30, 2005


I want to go to bed RIGHT NOW so that tomorrow will come faster. You have no idea how happy tomorrow is going to be for me... Too many people are here tonight for me to crash. But tomorrow is bound to come sooner or later and I cant wait....

Zodiac can be fun!

I love reading horoscopes. Could it be a guily pleasure? Most people think its silly but its fun to read. Some people believe that the predictions and traits mentioned in the horoscopes are really broad and can appeal to most people. I tend to lean in a different direction, but thats just because all of the things written about my sign are generally true. So you can see how I get caught up in the predictions and expected attitudes and feelings from these horoscopes.

On that note.... I present the Cosmopolitan Bedside Astrologer for 2006.

If you couldn't tell, I am a pisces. Water sign, romantic, all the generalizations for a pisces fits right to me.
Check this out....

Why you Blow Guy's Minds In Bed
~Your near-psychic abilities let you pinpoint the passion position he's craving.
~You vocalize your emotions, so you can't help cooing to your man about how amazing you feel in his arms.
~Your imagination is the wildest in the zodiac, providing a never-ending source of frisky fantasies to act upon.

The sex predictions are my favorites.

I also favor checking into my favorite guy's zodiac sign too. Guilty pleasure #2.

The Stallion just happens to be a Gemini. I have never been with a Gemini. Let me tell you, they are freaks. I knew this before even opening up this magazine. Check THIS out...

What Makes a Gemini Man So Sexy
~He's eager to make any fantasy you can think up (tame or torrid) come true.
~His stellar oral skills - talk about BLISS - will make you moan for more, and wonder how he got so good.
~He's loaded with energy, and that means he's always ready to get randy - anytime, anyplace.

From what I have seen and *ahem* felt so far, these are all true. This bedside astrologer also gives tips on "how to win his heart"
For my Gemini.... I can.... "Impress him with your brains as well as beauty. A chick who reads the paper and can talk intelligently about current events gets him hooked. If you manage to snag a reservation at the trendiest new resturaunt, you'll rush to the top of this scenester's list."
Ok hold on. Yes he does find me to be very cute when wearing my glasses but we dont shop talk current events that often if ever. And secondly, I would never call my Gemini a "scenester". If I can get dinner from McDonald's one night of the week, and make spagetti another, I can make my man eternally happy. And that makes me happy. So much of the happy going around.

The last thing from this ever so handy Astrology guide is "Your Hottest Love Matches". For those who have never checked into your Year Round Astrology Calender, you dont know what this is. It basically a Pisces+Gemini= "whatever the forecast predicts".
Here it is.... Pisces+Gemini 2006
He cracks you up, and his masterful bedroom maneuvers wipe you out. (THATS TRUE LMAO) But you're never positive where you stand. (how ominous!)
We got 2 roses in the Love catagory which means that "There's potential" and 3 flames in the Sex catagory which means that we are a "red hot duo". *hands over mouth* hehehehe.

Little side note, this thing predicts Ryan Gosling *swoon* as my ultimate sex match because he is a scorpio (who are killers in bed) and guess who they paired me with as my ultimate love match? He's a capricorn. He's my secret fantasy sexy hot boy. You know who it is.... ORLANDO BLOOM. I would D.I.E. But that was just totally unrelated to my previous train of thought. Orlando sometimes does that to me....
There last bit of crucial information that they had to share with me was this:
Your Essential Element: Water (Duh) Though intuitive, your dreaminess leaves you foggy-headed when it comes to love.
So You Need: A sensual guy who will keep you grounded.

What if I like that foggy-headed feeling??

Wednesday, December 28, 2005


All I can say is thank goodness Christmas is O.V.E.R. I completely lacked Christmas spirit this year. I don't know what it was this year. Usually I am filled with joy and goodness and all around warmth (go ahead and throw up now) but this year, I just kept hoping it would end quickly and painlessly. Don't get me wrong, I love the presents I got. I love the family I got to spend time with. There was just something missing.

One thing missing was The Coach on Christmas Eve. He chose to stay home with his friend and play video games instead of going to my mom's. Could it have something to do with the fact that I busted him sweet talking some chick under My Sunshine's loft bed the night before? I really can't blame him. Wait, never mind. Its ok for me but not for him. I won't go into the things I do in our house in comparison because its probably not as bad but he still got busted. I'm at least smart enough NOT to get caught. Anyways, he was supposed to be kissing my ass but still insisted on staying home. Christmas Eve was bunk anyways. It was just me, my parents, my son and my grandma there. Usually the house is full and this year, it just wasn't the same. I missed my cousins and their kids. I did not miss The Coach messing things up.
Christmas day was another story. There was no good food but there was good family. I hate that I dont get to spend more time with mine and most of the day with his. But I do love the two purses my M.I.L. got for me. Greedy much?

Enough about Christmas. I really hope I have the spirit next year, I think it was the last thing missing this year. Now New Years. That is another story. Every year the Coach and I have a party. This year, yours truely is flying solo. Well.... not exactly solo. Tucking in for 2006, I will be with The Stallion. There is no one in my life right now that I would rather be with. My Sunshine is with my mom this week and it feels good to relax. Especially with The Stallion. When a man almost cries because you tell him that the thing you are looking forward to the most on New Years Eve/Morning is waking up next to him, that can make a girl feel good. When he tells you that he will be there for you no matter what happens, that can make a girl feel good too. I dont know what is going to happen in a week, a month, and in 2006, but for now.... Everything feels pretty damn good.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

PMS much among other things...

OK I have had a bad case of PMS. Yesterday was the worse. I did not want to be around anyone. I didn't want anyone to talk to me, touch me, or even look at me. I was a raging bitch who had to result in falling asleep just so people would leave her alone. How brutal is that? My Sunshine touched my face to wake me up and I wanted to throttle him. I'm a bad mom when I PMS. Today I felt much better and had no problem snuggling with My Sunshine or with The One Who Makes My Heart Smile. So it was a good morning. We'll see if my temperment changes when I get home.

I had the weirdest dream last night. I dont know if it was an offset from the PMS or what but it was weird. But also good. I dreamt that I was somewhere with people I went to high school with. We were talking about a car that was shaped like a hamburger (lol I know it makes no sense and its totally unrelated to my dream) and my ex love of my life complained because he never saw the hamburger car and the reason being was that he was in love with me the whole time we were in high school. Anyways, we end up at some house where we got FREAKY. We were doing weird stuff to each other but in a good freaky way lol. So The One Who Makes My Heart Smile kept walking in and trying to see what we were doing. It was just WEIRD for the two of them to be in the same dream.

On to something totally not PMS related....
   I hear so much about this Blingo website, that I just had to mention it here. Everyone keeps winning stuff off it so I thought, why shouldn't I?? So go check it out would ya? Its powered by Google so its gotta be good. Plus if people are really winning free stuff, whats the harm in trying right?

Oh and I have to work on a new name for The One Who Makes My Heart Smile. That is waaaayy too long to type. Ideas in my head are only one so far: The Stallion (which is a fun nickname we have for him). TBA....

Friday, December 16, 2005

A Little Retraction

Ok I found out this morning that I didn't do as much damage as I had thought last night. But I really did feel THAT bad last night. Alcohol will fuel intense feelings of guilt. Make a note in case you didn't know that.

This morning's relief was another rush of emotions. I feel tired today. I don't know if it is because of my hangover or because I was really restless last night while trying to sleep. The doctor in me tells me it is a combination of the two. Self diagnoses is a wonderful thing.

Enjoy your day for me. I'll be sitting here at work feeling sick and bored and wishing to be in bed with the one person who makes my heart smile.

I've seen your face a thousand times,
Have all your stories memorized
I've Kissed your lips a million ways
But I still love to have you around

Its you there when I close my eyes,
And you in the morning
I never thought you'd still be mine

Thursday, December 15, 2005

broken heart?

I think I broke his heart tonight. I feel bad. I feel like dirt. I feel like the dirt that people avoid stepping in because they just aren't quite sure what could be in it. As a matter of fact, I feel worse. How much worse can you get? Think about it. Then imagine that I'm that.

I am pathetic.

I'm sorry.

It Can Be Special....

Some days, I really H.A.T.E. forwards. Some of them are so stupid. I like the jokes, I like the pictures, b ut I usually do not like the ones that tell you about bad luck if you dont forward, blah blah blah. Those are crap. I got one today that had some interesting quotes. Just thought I would share....

♥ The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

♥ We don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

♥ Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

♥ Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Best Way to Answer the Phone

I think the best way that anyone has ever answered my call was this morning. By far the best that I can remember.
phone: *ring ring*
him: I was just thinking about you.

I could have died right then and been happy.
Amazing how things should be for me if I could have that life.

You Make People Happy....

Me: So, he told me today that it was my job to take care of him. I had to ask him, "well then who is going to take care of me?" (This came out half understandable as I was almost crying at that point in the conversation)
Me: That is really unfair to me.
Him: You make people happy. Don't you know that?
Him: You make your son happy. You make your mom happy. You make me happy don't you?
Me: *speechless*
Me: *still speechless*
Him: You make me happy. That should be enough. And you are good at it. We always have fun when we are together.

This conversation was too emotional for a Tuesday night. But he made up for the comment that started to break my heart so I had to forgive him. He is too cute NOT to forgive anyways.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

First of many....

wow... first blog with blogger. I am a xanga veteran, what can I say? I even pay for it! And yet here I am.... I think this has something to do with the different blogs I have been browsing lately and the formats used. I cant have that with xanga. I doubt I will renew my membership with them when the time comes. Which just means that I have to cancel my membership before they charge me automatically again.... which they have been doing for about 2 years now because I am too lazy to cancel it. How sad is that?

Anyways. Introductory post to come later. I want to get the format of this down before I make this place really feel like home. I'm sure you will understand and forgive me later.